Mommie...Again: Memories of my Son really hit me hard this weekend.
Feb 27, 2012

Memories of my Son really hit me hard this weekend.

I haven't talked about him at all on my blog here....but I believe it's time to start talking and writing. I posted a note to my FB about my feelings and my friends and family say to "keep talking, keep writing as it heals the heart". So from today on, I'll be writing more about Johnny Dane Taylor, my only son.

Johnny was 30 years old when he left us to be with God. He left behind 4 children, one of which my husband and I are raising. He died on August 26, 2010. See, so it's still new and looks like I'm not dealing with it very good. I think it's time for me to get professional help. I hide it very well.

I thank God for giving me the strength to carry on....as I have to so I can be the best Mommie to Brody.

On another note...Brody's biological mother is no longer in the picture.

One day soon, I will write my full story. Until now, here's a picture that my best friend from our younger years says fell right out of a cabinet that she was looking in just this morning. This is the second sign from her that assure us both, that my son, Johnny is looking down at me and wishing me the best life here on Earth.

I love you Johnny Dane Taylor. I also lost Chrissy last year...our precious dog of more than 16 years.

Mom, Johnny & Chrissy

14 comments:

  1. I cannot even imagine the magnitude of pain that accompanies losing a child. I'm just sorry that you've had to suffer it all. I think it's great that you're starting to open up about it. I think when anything is eating us up inside, the best thing to do is get it out there and face it. I know you have a lot of people here who will understand and will lift you up the best they can.

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  2. I can't even begin to imagine what you must go through on a daily basis. Hugs and prayers for you.

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  3. I am very sorry for your loss. It isn't quite the same,but we have a son that also died...he was stillborn when I was 9 months pregnant. That was in 2009. So while he was younger and some things are different about your situation and mine...I have a son in heaven, I have gone to a funeral for my child, I have picked out clothes to bury him in, I live everyday with photos, memories and "supposed to be"s.

    ((hugs))

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  4. I'm so sorry Kim. I read this blog and see you being a wonderful mother to Brody. I agree with your friends - find someone to talk to about this. Hopefully it will lighten some of your burdens.

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  5. It is a tragedy to lose a child. There is so much grief to work through, and having someone help you in this journey is a good thing to do. Praying for comfort for you.

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  6. Kim, just hearing about your pain has me crying already. My prayers are with you, Dear. My son is chronically ill, and just the thought of losing him scares me. But I leave it in God's hands, and I pray that God will ease your pain.

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  7. My heart is sad that yours is hurting :(. I imagine you see your son in Brodys eyes and perhaps that can be part of the healing! Scripture tells us that our God can bring beauty out of ashes and that will be my prayer for you! I think you're brave for sharing and I for one will be in your corner! Hang in there friend and may God behind to comfort your heart as only He can!
    Jen Whitten
    whittenwins@yahoo.com

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  8. I can't begin to imagine what that must feel like. Its good that feel that you can write about him.

    I hope this helps you heal.

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  9. *hugs*. Praying for you.

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  10. I wish I had some profound words that would magically make you feel better, but I don't. I can only say that my heart is breaking for you and you will be in my prayers every night. God bless you.

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  11. I dated Johnny for a short while several years ago and googled him hoping to find some shred of evidence that he was doing better. My heart has been broken for all of his family since then. Do you know who the other person is in the picture? It's hard to tell, but it actually looks like it could be me. Praying for you, Kim.

    ~Amy (Collier)

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    1. Hello - I shall always cherished and hold on to any comments made by nice caring people that knew my son. Thank you so much. I miss him terrible. His Mom.

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  12. Hi, sorry Kim. I just saw where you said that pic was you. Sorry! Don't post these comments... Just know I have always thought of him frequently. Now I can think of you with his sweet baby and pray for your journey.

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Kim is a 50+ Influencer and a Lifestyle Blogger from north Texas. She and her husband have been permanent parents to their youngest grandson from his birth of almost 5 years ago. Kim loves writing about child activities and all the messes her grandson gets into. She lives a healthy life and loves traveling, home decor, and DIY beauty treatments.

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